Good day to you all. I’m contemplating the road homeward and the sweet harbor, treasure, and work of life there, from my first empty day in a long while. There is a real emptiness to an empty day in a strange place – a cafe in Cambridge near Harvard Square. Last night within the confines of Club Passim, Char and I felt like kings. The place was roaring and we brought that about. What a shivering joy to know. Now, we revert to our other roles as somewhat odd looking guys with end-of-the-tour rumpled clothes, standing half-bewildered on a foreign shore. That half-bewilderment is a wild thing. No question, I’m starved for home, for my dear ones, more parched even than New Mexico before the monsoon. But we’ve been here enough times to know where things are, to find ourselves something other than exactly different. And that’s a pleasure in many ways. We’re finding a musical home in a place where the kind of thing we’re up to plugs into some wider, respected context. It’s a heartening transformation, though it feels quite hard-won – the kind of touring we put ourselves and our families up to this summer does bring the word “brutal” to mind.
Now the new album is out, and we can breathe a little, shift a little, be with our families for a good while before slowly bringing our faces around to the future. Thank God. And still, pangs.
I meant to keep up on this blog when we started this tour back in May – it’s been in the past a real anchor into something for me. Due to the lack of smartness of my telephone and my own lack of energy at day’s end, I’ve dropped off the map a bit. It hurts to do that. I’m still here, and there’s been a lot to recount.
The path doesn’t know where it goes. Neither do I. I can set out looking at signposts, and hope that the in-between places will unfold as intended in an orderly way bringing me to the destination. But really, I miss everything around me until I’m good and bloody lost. Because hey, the path doesn’t move. It stays put the whole while. But that being said, I need a compass, I need a star to measure down or a landmark when the sky is cloudy. I need a point of reference in order to keep searching.